Moodiness can be bliss

Today I realized that I have been in a mood all week. Not a bad mood, per se, but a mood that borderlines mild irritability. The type of mood that for the most part goes unnoticed in the hustle and bustle of everyday life and actually went unnoticed by me until this afternoon. I got out of my chair, pushed it a little too hard against the desk..and whammo..it dawned on me that I was not a happy camper all week. My first thought after my discovery was how it took me so long to discover it. The second thought was why I was in a mood to begin with. It was funny because my brain could not wrap itself around one single bad day, bad event, bad anything, but trying to come up with a reason 'why' made me even more irritable. I can only surmise that we all have periods of time that we feel "not ourselves". In fact the term "not myself" fit what I was feeling to a tee. Once discovered and self analyzed I relished the mood the rest of the day and will probably continue tomorrow too. Why not? Someone asks "What's wrong??" and you reply "Well, I am not feeling myself". Follow it with a shrug of the shoulders, cast your eyes to to the ground and frown. All of sudden the person you unleashed your irritability on feels, well, sorry for you. They let it go and you can continue to the next person and all the while your mood is expressing itself and taking a life of its own. So, this week my mood is in charge and for that I am truly "not myself".